Re: I am looking for suicide poems...come in if u can help.
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Date: April 27, 2022 10:57PM
Before I Die
by Lilith G Penny
-I'm sorry, God, if I have hurt you.
I'm sorry, Mom, if I have been a disgrace.
I'm sorry, love, if I can't love you,
and I'm sorry, me, for acting so insane.
-To you, oh God, I ask for forgiveness.
To you, oh Mom, I ask for help.
To you, oh Love, I ask to show love,
and to myself, I ask for death.
-This, dear God, is all I ask you.
This, dear Mom, is all I want.
This, dear love, is all I need from you,
and this, dear me, is all I get.
-God, you first, I need to find you.
I know I found you, you know I did.
But, God, where are you when I need you,
to help, to comfort, to feel I exist?
-I know you've been here since I was little;
the day I was born you were there.
My first steps, my first words. you heard me say them;
my first tooth, my first kiss, I know you helped.
-But now where are you, oh God Almighty?
It's probably my fault for taking curves.
I've done bad things that have left me thinking
of how and when death will come for me.
-Now you, my dear old mother,
I've made you feel like not wanting me.
I know you think of how unfortunate
you are for having me.
-I've lied, and yelled at you constantly.
I say and do things that make you cry.
I've said that I don't love you many times,
knowing that those words are killing me inside.
-I'm sorry, oh Mother, for hurting you deeply.
I'm sorry, oh Mother, for making you cry.
I'm sorry, oh Mother, it won't be long now.
You won't suffer much, because I'll soon be gone.
-My love, to you, are these next words.
To the one I never found, and never will on this world.
I tell you, whereever you are, I want you to know
that time cures heartaches, so don't cry if I go.
-But even though I have no idea where you are,
I'll make believe that someone loves me with all his heart.
That way, when I go, I'll think before I die,
that I love a great man, then at least, I'll feel loved.
-Please, when I leave, I want you to not cry.
I want you to say and think that everything is all right.
And when you wake up the following day, I want you to know, love,
that I loved you and will love you for days.
-To me, oh yes, me,
I say, 'what a waist.'
To throw away a perfectly healthy life on me--
damn you, me-- was so insane.
-Don't worry, me, I will not say a word.
If you promise, me, to leave this world.
Hey, me, please, you'd better not cry,
because, you'll soon end in a tomb down six feet under ground.
-Me, myself, and I, alone,
just letting the worms eat me from below,
What a great mental picture I have of me.
I guess that me, will shoot herself to sleep.