FATHER’S MEMENTO

What would he take from these faint images of
stature, its dress, portrait, and presentation

as against the madness of half-illuminated night
shouted beneath window blockings in the final retrieval

in old age, to take back what a petty dream
forsook, find the rage will get him into
the

can’t make it right
and settle finally for
sham, with that too,
set himself in the old house.

Is this 'about' the author's regret or his regard for his father's memory? It is painful in either reading.